Time for the Art of BEING
Hi everyone! I’m still here. I’ve had some of you contact me and see if everything was alright – THANK YOU for that! You don’t know how much your thoughtfulness means to me. Yep, everything is fine! Let me share with you what has been going on and why I have been MIA for a few months.
The surest and most reliable way to know whether you are following your intuition is that whenever you do so, you feel more alive. I have been increasing my communication mindfulness lately by listening deeply to what is being said. Externally and internally. My intuition had been speaking loudly to me and I started listening. Remember, your instincts will never fail you. The logical mind can be duped. The eyes and ears can be bamboozled. They see what they want to see. They hear what they want to hear. However, your Inner Being cannot be confused.
A few months ago I was feeling something was OFF with me. I felt burned out from writing on the blog, things I was once passionate about lost its glitter, feeling stressed and confused about what to eat (my mind was saying one thing and my body another), I was being harsh with myself in thoughts/attitudes. What used to work, didn’t any longer. I felt like I was a piece of a puzzle yet the overall picture had changed, but my “piece” had not – it didn’t fit anymore. I had been asking the Universe to “go deeper” with the cleansing of old patterns/ old behaviors/ old mindsets and to bring about healing where I could experience living from a place of peace and freedom. So, I decided to go within and really listen. The words I kept seeing and hearing were BEING. My intuition was nudging me so I decided to embrace this new concept and go with it. I have found that one of the most difficult challenges for me is when my intuition is telling me NOT to do something. I had an idea about something I thought I should be doing and I found that I simply had no energy in it when I kept going back to it time and time again. I was trying to make myself do it, but it just wasn’t working. I thought something was wrong with me but it took me some time to recognize that life/ my intuition was trying to give me a message that this is not the right course of action at the moment. When I realized all of this, it opened up a whole new opportunity for me to look at EVERYTHING in my life. The concept of DOING and BEING. At first, it was a little unnerving because it was new and uncharted, but at the same time, I knew in my heart and soul, it was RIGHT! It lights me up to think about it – THAT is a positive sign to me.
Our culture conditions us to believe that we must always being doing something outwardly productive. Many of us are extremely driven and feel that we must be accomplishing something at every moment. If we are not doing something, we feel we are wasting our time. That others (and ourselves) will criticize us for being lazy and unmotivated. We have lost the value of Being - taking time to rest, relax, contemplate, explore the inner realm and generally replenish and nurture ourselves. We are terribly out of balance in this respect. I feel this is why so many people develop chronic fatigue syndrome and other related illnesses because our bodies have to force us to stop driving ourselves and hopefully that we will LISTEN to what is being said and shown.
Doing is a state of focused, directed, goal-oriented activity. It allows us to handle all the things we need and want to accomplish. Being is a state where we can fully experience the present moment, without thought of the past or future. It allows us to reach a deeper place, where we can connect with our spiritual nature. It allows us to be in the NOW and flow with life as it comes our way. It is important to realize and understand that spending time Being is how we replenish and revitalize ourselves. The Being state allows us to refill ourselves with the Life Force that we have spent doing. It literally brings us fulfillment. They are both equally important in their own state. It is finding the balance between the two that brings peace and freedom to our lives.
For me, my intuition was showing me how to develop the ability to relax and flow with Life, be present in the moment. At first, with my paying attention to the inner guidance aspect so carefully, that I went through a period of feeling like I didn’t want to do much for awhile. It was like I had gone back to school to UNLEARN what I had learned (most of my life as doer). I was too structured, planned, organized and I controlled too much (a hell of a lot better than I used to be, but it was time to really clear it – you remember, I was asking for it). Taking old patterns and behaviors, mindsets, attitudes and more – swiping them from my hard drive, so to speak. These parts were not servicing me any longer and I knew it. I was ready to face this head on – no more half ass stuff. Then downloading some new programs, learning new concepts, mindsets, and awareness and then putting it all into application. Kind of like reading a manual on how to ride a bike, but then once you actually get on the bike and ride it will you understand the overall experience. It has and will continue to take some time to work out the kinks and bugs along the way. But that is the fun part, right?! It’s part of the growth process and journey for our individual selves and soul. It never ends and I don’t want it to. It’s not like “I’ve cleaned out my house and will never have to do it again.” Oh, yes you will. Unless you want to live in filth and grime. I don’t think you do. It may not be easy or fun at times (I’ve had some rough days of processing), but to me it is worth it on so many levels. I have changed my mindset about it and see it as fun and exciting now. “What new can I learn about myself today?” It is a deeper level of making changes within myself. I watch my thoughts that go through my head as if I were an observer of a movie. I have caught ALL KINDS of things that I have reviewed and changed.
For example, a situation may arise and I can choose to react/ respond from an old place or I can see it in a different light and respond from a place of Love. Another example, I used to look at myself in the mirror and mentally think/ say hateful things to myself. “Look at those thighs – who is going to like you with cellulite? You’re putting on weight – you’re no good. You’re not as skinny as you were 2 years ago, blah, blah, blah.” I catch those fleeting thoughts now and say “Hey! You are wonderful. You have strong thighs that allow you lift heavy things, take long walks/ hikes, ride that fun bike. I love you, thighs!” I may have put on some extra weight but it looks good on me. I look healthier, I feel better. I don’t have to try to BE a number on a pair of jeans. I am learning to love my body, my personality, my Life. I am not allowing my past traumas to hold me back any longer. I am healing them and experiencing a part of life I never allowed myself to. It’s OK. I wasn’t ready then, but I am now.
Once I began to surrender into the time of Being, even if only for a short while, I felt replenished, alive and at peace. My energy has begun to move in a new direction and way – a different vibration it seems. I’m learning to listen to my intuitive feelings and act on them. When it is asking to move and when it desires rest. One of the cool things I have noticed with integrating Being energy into my life with the doing energy – the issue of time begins to dissolve. I was always trying to fit everything into a time frame and feeling scattered and stressed by it. Not so much anymore. By feeding and nourishing myself with Being, I have let go the frantic pursuit of external success, accomplishments or exciting experiences. I don’t NEED them to feel worthy or fulfilled. I am fulfilled in a totally different way now – from within. Simple things bring me such joy where I am right now. When things need to get done, I feel the energy to do them and I accomplish them with little to no effort or it may turn out that they didn’t need to be done after all. Life has become a flow, in which I am seeing as it opens up to me exactly as it needs to. Things, situations, experiences, miracles and more come my way when it is supposed to. My daily mantra: “I relax into the flow of living.” I will sometimes change it up and say playing, receiving, giving, loving, etc. in place of living. Whatever comes to mind or heart. I also like to say “I experience everyday miracles. Thank you!”
Another cool thing I have gotten from this experience is to PLAY more and have fun in whatever I am doing. For a few days in a row, I kept hearing BIKE and PLAY. So, I went out, bought an inexpensive bike and have thoroughly been loving it. It has brought back a freedom and joy I experienced as a kid when I had a bike. I am listening and paying attention to little things like this that I would have normally not allowed myself or even thought about. I am learning to simply feel relaxed, peaceful and content to be right where I am supposed to be, with no particular need or desire to do anything else. I feel it mostly with quiet times alone, with Scott and the dogs, and especially in nature. I apply it when I am doing the dishes, laundry, cooking, driving, working, exercising, playing in the garden. It’s amazing – the difference. I feel more compassionate, understanding, nurturing, loving, at peace, non-judgmental of myself or others (accepting), and more. The more I see/ feel it within myself, the more it reflects outside of me to others. I’m not in this state of balance all the time. The more I practice and apply it, the more natural it feels and is a part of me. It is gradually unfolding and is an ongoing experience/ journey for me. I find more pleasure with limited time online (less that is), more time outdoors connecting with nature, reading, and finding new interests. There is a joy and contentment in my life now that I haven’t experienced before. I am allowing my Life Force to guide and move me in a new and playful dance. There are no set rules and guidelines. Just an openness to take new steps and have fun along the way. Life is so much better now. Allow yourself to go deeper and release that stuff that no longer serves you. Ask your Source for guidance and pay attention. It’s there for you – always.
So, that’s what I have been up to. Living, playing, experiencing life and learning new ways of Being. I’ll be posting when the energy moves me to do so. I’ve got a guest writer for you all next week and a SWEET giveaway right around the bend.
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